Day 28: Scary

I fear of being alone :(

Another year :)

I know, I know. I'm not getting any younger :(

Thank you Lord for a wonderful teenage journey. It was full of life-lessons which I know helped me become who I am now. There were times that I suddenly thought of giving up but You gave me strength to pursue the path I'm taking. There were a lot of crossroads but You guided me towards the light. There were moments that I became unappreciative but You never get tired of enlightening me. You encouraged me to love despite rejections, You opened my mind with criticisms, You taught me everything.

Thank you for giving another year to spend with my loved ones, the chance to improve, and learn more about the world You created despite my unending mistakes. I know You are always there. Thank you and I love You :)

Moodswing attacks

Oyes. I've been like this for almost a week. Now, I'm hyper, then the next thing I know I'd be thinking about things that will make me upset. I seemed to be who I am when talking to friends in social networking sites , but here at home, straight face, quiet and I'm really not in the mood to talk. I'd rather stay quiet, watch movies, read a book, and I'm really moody lately :l

Seriously, I'm not excited with my birthday because I got the feeling that something will disappoint me that day. Though my parents insisted to bring friends here, I'd rather not to because I want to be alone (emotionally). Weird right? but I guess I can't figure out what's bugging me. Is it because I won't be a teenager anymore? Is it because of random problems I kept for myself? Is it because of worrying things too much?

THIS IS NOT ME.

I used to be expressive. I used to be appreciative. I used to be. I admit, I don't know who to trust anymore. I've been a weakling since "things" started to change; since I felt betrayed; since I felt emotionally rejected. I need some time soul searching and time to discern. :(

Day 27: Please?

I know it's sembreak already but I haven't touched my blog lately. It's because of fail internet connection :(

Anyway.

Second chance. I'd share the basic - grades. I often asked God to give me good grades despite my laziness, and always promised Him that I'll be doing my best the next time. Yes, mababaw, but I think that's the best second chance, no, many chances that He keeps on giving me. Thank you Lord for the good grades this semester :)

Hello, October

Naalimpungatan ako, and I really need to regain my composure, so here I am blogging.

Hello, first day of October. There were series of class suspensions but it's been a stressful - it's still hell week. There are twists and good news this week, and I know God has His plans already, and I'll be doing my best. :)

I'd like to share that this day is "reminisce day" because out of the blue, the past seemed to haunt us. My friend, Debbie suddenly looked at old pictures, like 2 to 3 years ago, then we were like, 'awww'. Then the event in the school featured bands kept on playing OPM songs hitting the charts when we are high school.

It really seems like yesterday. It's hard for me to count the days remaining :(

I'm really not in the mood, sorry :(((

day 26: BREAKUP?

NOT APPLICABLE HAHAHA

Day 25: Heyou, future guy

Dear Future Lover,

Wherever you are right now, I hope you'll find me. I'll be willing to wait for you if I know you'll be nice to me and won't hurt me. See you when I see you :)

Love,
Me

Day 24: Miss, I miss

SLEEP. SERIOUSLY! I miss complete hours of sleep. But I'm enjoying the stuffs I've been doing though they're stressful. It's okay :) HOHOHO

Day 23: Teardrops keep falling on my face

I cry whenever I'm mad, I cry because of Drama movies. HAHA K payn :)

Day 22: COMFORTING STUFFS

Number 1 is food! Whenever I'm stressed, depressed and the like, I eat. Eat anything, healthy foods to junk foods. ANYTHING. I just needed something to chew as if my worries were gone in chewing.

Number 2 is praying. A casual conversation with Him as if He's just beside me. It really makes me better.

Number 3. STARING AT MY HAMSTER. No joke. It's as if I entered his world of no worries.

That's my top three :)

Day 21: Upset the Sunset

I don't know. Maybe I'll consider this one:

It's when a friend loses her time chit-chatting with me just because of  BOYLET or girl (in cases of guys). ESPECIALLY whenever I ask how's she then she'd answer the simplest answer ever, then the conversation would just end there. It WAS not like that before (seems like I'm already sharing a story). And what's more irritating is, when I'm seeing posts of the "guy", oh. Okay? So, it seems like she's having much fun talking with him. No, I'm not jealous with friends having their own love lives. It's just that, having a "love life" shouldn't stop your communication with old friends. I mean, in the end, if they'll end up broken-hearted, to whom they'll run to? Friends whom they ignored while they were in the height of joy. SERIOUSLY, I'd be glad to meet and get to know the target of my friends's eyes because supposedly, those people should be my friend. ARGH. Sorry.

I already said that to her when she had her relationship with her ex. But it seems like, she'd doing it again which is much more upsetting. :l

Day 20: Shattered

Regrets, I hate this word. Everyone does I guess?

So, what is it that I regret? Hmm, it's saying something I shouldn't have.

It's a long, VERY LONG STORY. Besides, it's over then, so I don't want to talk about it. It's just that, the lesson I learned after that is: Don't let your emotions take over you, or else, you might end up saying things you shouldn't, that may affect someone, or relationship or anything.

Where are you?

Dear Focus, 

Where are you when I needed you the most? I'm kinda busy lately, no, really busy. And I'll be very busy this month. I really need you at times like this, but where have you gone? Are you not interested in helping me with my stuffs? What is it that you need just for you to go back in my loving arms?

Where are you? Are you looking for an inspiration for me? I'd be glad to meet him, but, please not now. Don't waste your time looking for my prince charming who's nowhere to be found because I'm wasting mine. Please be back. Please. I'M BEGGING YOU! :/

Love,

Jhabhabz

Day 19: A place for peace

When I was in elementary, everytime I was asked about my favorite place (one of the famous questions in slumbooks) i always answer HOME. Because at home, I can watch television, and play with my neighbors the whole afternoon.

When I got into High School, it was not asked frequently then, but my heart always wanted to stay in SCHOOL. Not because I hate our home, but because, in school, I have friends to chat the whole afternoon, with unending laughters, and food tripping.

When I entered college, I'd now say both HOME and SCHOOL. There may be a lot of paper works in school, but my friends are there, not to feel how difficult a task may be; while our home is there whenever I needed a place to relax after a tiring day, and food galore without paying too much. So, that's my favorite places :)

Day 18: MemO the Memory

My favorite memory? I got lots of them, but I'll pick this one.

When I was nursery, my school was just a 10-minute walk from our house. My parents or our "kasambahay" will bring me to school then fetch me after.

One afternoon, my friend (or should I say classmate?) asked me "Hindi ka pa uuwi? tara, uwi na tayo." I told her that I'll be waiting for my "sundo" but she kept on insisting. When we started walking, I just realized, she's a street away from our school when she bid goodbye the very first corner we passed by.

Out of the blue, I continued walking towards home, then ran into our "kasambahay" or my mom? I can't remember. Then when I got home. I was scolded, REALLY SCOLDED because I was not supposed to walk home alone by that age.

So, that was my adventure when I was 3 or 4 years old? :))

Day 17: DEFINE happy birthday!

My favorite birthday is my 18th. I may had not experienced the "cotillion" celebration, but, that was the time I had the chance to have fun with super random friends - from Elementary, High School, to College.

I had lunch date with Xar and friends when I was fourth year, on separate dates of course. And It was fun, SUPER FUN. We had to do some "coping up stage" since we haven't seen each other for months (an advantage of having a birthday on sembreak :D).

My college friends surprised me on our last day. I could still remember that it was the deadline of our final paper in one of our subjects. Lunch date as well :)

Then, we had a little celebration at home :)

Day 16: I'm a kid who believe in dreams

Everyone dreams and I have lots of it. So, I'll just name some of it.

Number one dream. Become successful with the path I chose. Being a journalism student makes me think, "what's my future in this field?" because, it is a fact that in this profession, only few succeed, especially when talking about mainstream. So, I don't know now, but before, I really dreamed for becoming one :)

Two. Have a family on my own. HAHA Okay. So, I don't know if I'll have to elaborate on this one.

Three. I can fulfill the dreams I created for my parents. I have this wide and various ideas on how I'll make them happy with my own money.

Three dreams (I think) is enough to be posted here :)

I love books :)

I re-married books.

The last time I held a book was last summer, then when classes started I set aside all of those.

We went to Makati for post-OJT purposes, then after that, we ended up in Powerbooks. I was amazed with the 75% off, and I grabbed the opportunity to look for books that I might get interested in reading. I was able to buy two books for about 200 pesos? So, that's where it all started again.

I bought four books within the month, (three from the sale thing, and a secondhand book), and I wasn't able to finish any of it yet. HAHA It just so happens that I don't have that much time to finish all of it, because e-book added to my list (Finally, I learned how to use it, credits to Essen :D)

So here I am, fond of seeing these piled up books. I know that one day, I'll finish ALL of these. :D

It's been a while, blogger

The last time I posted an entry here was like weeks ago, and it was completely non-sense. HAHA So, anyway, I'll have this serious post with the what's-going-on thing.

"Time-on-Earth month" is about to end, and there goes "Hell month". (Since there's such thing as "Hell month" I chose to name the pre-hell month to "time on Earth". When judgement day comes, the basis of entering heaven or down to hell is with the things you've done while on Earth :D).

So, do I really have to explain that? As I was saying, piles of school papers, projects, reporting are about to come. No. They're here actually. It's just that how we'll be able to accomplish things just in time. The thing I promised to myself is, I WILL NEVER CRAM AGAIN. Take note, I even created a planner thingy just to put in there the things I have to do in a day. Things are better until social networking sites started to haunt me. These sites ALWAYS interrupt with things I need to do. They say, it's a matter of control, but I can't. With these sites, I tend to communicate with HS friends which I haven't for, months I think? and seriously, the stress I've experiencing me gives me the peaceful mind whenever I talked with these guys. And, I felt, that since I'm not really into texting anymore, it's a bridge that would connect me to them whenever they need me or vice versa. So, what now?

All I need is CONTROL and TIME MANAGEMENT I guess? :)

Day 15: Kisses

Okay. What's the meaning of this? No kidding, my parents. everyone does anyway. It just so happens that some associates "first kiss" with something romantic so they answer it with their "love of their life". Well, if that's the case, there none :))) K. :)

Day 14: ha-ha-ha

I laugh at simple things at the sincerest way possible. :)

I laugh at simple jokes, I laugh at things I find funny. And seriously, even my weirdest actions make me laugh. So weird. HAHAHA :)

day 13: my week was kinda weak

Weak because I felt really depressed in two of those days; and

Weak because I ate a lot despite my diet.

So, here goes my week:

Monday: I went to school earlier than usual because we had to finish the powerpoint presentation for our report in Fil Journ. We finished it in Hanayo - a korean restaurant - and ate there. We ate ice cream and I added bibimbap to my list. How glutton I was. :( After that, we attended the only class for that day, and went home after. When I got home, I started read my book in LRT for next day's exams. I went online because my eyes didn't stop from drooping (I needed a little distraction that'll keep me awake.) My high school friends then posted on my wall then some chit-chat while reviewing.

Tuesday: I slept around three in the morning after reading notes and conversation with friends. I woke up early to continue reviewing then, prepared, then went to school for the exams. LRT + Broad Journ exams made me depressed really. It was so tiring that my body's memory card crashed.; my stomach started to growl; and my hands were literally numb. :( We're literally tired physically and emotionally so we went straight to Mcdo before going home and had dinner there. When I got home, I read a bit of the handouts for next day's exams.

Wednesday: I woke up early again to continue reviewing, then went to school after preparing. EXAMS! same as Tuesday's. It drained all of my strength. :(

Thursday: So we had to unwind! My friends and I decided to go to Seoul Garden, and ate there,then proceeded to Timezone to play. We pampered ourselves, and enjoyed the day. Nice way to forget exams and depression even just for a while. It made me miss high school, because we were like that - malling after exams :)

Friday: Rest day. I stayed at home, woke up after lunch, then had a bonding time with my family. :)

Saturday: We went to Issa's for thesis. Then she gave us movies before going home. :)) I started watching those movies after MMK's episode last night :">

Sunday: PIZZA DAY! :)

Day 12: Bag! :)

What's inside my bag?

So, here are the things that I bring everytime I go to school:

1. Umbrella - in case of heavy rains

2. Coin Purse - I need money for food and transpo purposes

3. Pouch - load matters :))

4. Kikay kit - ;)

5. Pen/Highlighter - I love writing and doodling :)

6. handouts/books - depends on the day

7. Planner - depends if it'll still fit inside

8. a rosary - a gift from my friend when I was in High School :)

:)

Day 11: Sibs

I have two brothers. :) That's all. :))

Non-sense. Sorry :P

Life's too short

Only God knows until when you'll be staying here on Earth.

When I got home from the super fun General Assembly of our Society, I checked my Facebook and I was shocked when I saw wall posts from my batchmates about one of the teachers, when we were high school, passing away. Curiosity strikes and I checked our batch's Group and there, someone posted a link where they got the news, and later on, someone confirmed it:

http://www.gmanews.tv/video/85123/bt-rider-patay-matapos-sumalpok-ang-kanyang-motorsiklo-sa-bus

Sir Angel was a Science teacher when we were First Year High School. He wasn't my teacher though because he handled 6 out of 7 sections in our batch. But, my friends from other sections kept on sharing stories about him, so at least, I know him partially.

I heard that this weekend was his funeral. Sir Angel Aripan, may you rest in peace.

Day 10: I'm Blue

Since I don't have classes today, I'm stuck at home. Therefore, no uniforms for today :)

I wore something blue today. Blue shirt, with cutey Elmo printed on it. It's a hand-me-down shirt from my brother when he was younger. HAHA it's okay, as long as Elmo is cute ;) Then a blue shorts. I'm all blue :)

Day 9: I believe

I believe in many things but I'll give my top 6:

Miracles. It's a miracle that he lets me sleep and wake up the next day with life's homeworks, seatworks, and exams. Miracles help me surviving because it supplies the faith that I need.

Karma. "Don't do to others what you don't want to do unto you." :)

Destiny. I believe that I write my life's story, and God is there to be my editor. He'll teach me the best way how to correct my life, and His plans will make me a better me. God has already written my destiny, maybe He's just waiting for the right time when to teach me how.

Friends can be siblings. Since I don't have a sister, there's this thing in me that I consider my friends as my siblings. I believe that friends are siblings from the past and future life.

Family's love is unconditional. They will be there for me no matter what happens. :)

God. He's the creator and He has great plans :)

Day 8: I'd rather forget it

The pain in forcing yourself to stop living the life you used to because of a surprising incident.

Digging up the story behind this makes me emotional. I hope you don't mind. :) 

Day 7: Reunions

I love reunions.

Yes, there were times that I get so irritated when you're trying to contact people and they don't bother answering your messages, HAHA. Like what my friend told me, I'm an event's organizer, and I also felt like one. And seriously, whenever I see successful reunions, (especially planned and organized by me), it's a memory worth keeping.

I've had many bonding reunions already but I'd share the recent. The latest reunion slash birthday surprise for our youngest ka-barkada, Reg. I was invited to her debut but, as usual, I wasn't able to come. And since my conscience kept on bugging me, I thought of giving her something special from all of us, and with God's grace, I received a sign. Enelle will be having her vacation here, and Trish offered her place. Everything went well despite Chedeng's arrival. Thank God! :) Super bonding - from cooking the food, to hot seat, to twitter, and to unending picture taking :)

I miss them and of course, my other friends :)

Day 6: Sisters from my Past and Future Life :)

"A best friend is a sister that destiny forgot to give you" -Anonymous

Another difficult topic since I'm not really into branding closest friends (maybe before) "best friend". I believe, once I become close with someone, I must make sure that I could maintain the certain bond, perhaps treat them as my sibling. And seriously, once a ka-barkada will always be a brother or sister to me. Therefore, I treat them as my close friends.

So, how am I going to deal with this one? Maybe, I'll follow Gel's way of doing this entry, and perhaps have a representative for each group.

First stop. There's this girl I met 13 years ago, she's Mikaela, or Miks. I can say she's a childhood super friend. We were classmates in grade 1 and I could still remember her bag - bag because that was when I realized she was my "ka-service". To make it short, we became close and had a lot of "bloopers" in our friendship (because seriously, if you'll get to know our story, it's full of humor, as if we're characters of a comic strip). I never remembered ANY dramatic moments with her. It's just full of Haha's and me annoying her, or the other way. HAHA

W.I.T.C.H. Berkada (from the famous W.I.T.C.H. comics). I was grade 5 then when I became close with 5 girls, and closer to Roma. We call each other GF. We're really close, like real sisters and buddies, and I became so depressed when she transferred school. I miss her badly and I haven't talked to her lately.

Xar (10 lovely ladies).Grade 6, when I became close with Trisha. She's the one whom I tell my problems regarding family matters, and she's good in giving advices. Psych talaga! :) Yes, we may had had misunderstandings before, but look at us now. We survived a roller coaster ride and still our friendship's going strong :)

Makukulit. Largest number of friends in a barkada, consists of boys and girls. Representative? Hannah, my "Khambal". Yes, we're twins by name but there are a lot of difference. HAHA. But, we sticked to it. I met her when I was grade 6 (close to high school anyway), we were seatmates actually, then that's the start of the story. Our mothers became close after the family day, then closer during retreat time. Sooner, i became close with her siblings, HAHA those two whom I really treat as my younger sibs.Yes, we had dramatic moments and happy stuffs of course. We don't really talk that much lately but I know deep inside our hearts, there's the connection. At random times, we suddenly miss each other and pm'ed stuffs. I miss her badly. :)

When I was in fourth year, Gradavole (Affability, my section) became my family and became close with them - Hazel, Danica, Warren, Katyu, Charm, and Miks. But among them, I'll share my story with Hazey. She's my love doctor. I don't why I feel so comfortable when I tell her stories like that, maybe because she's also comfortable when sharing hers to me. My heart-opener and helps me whenever I need her.

JRN 2. You'll rarely see me walking along the corridors of St. Raymund's without Emkei. I call her "Ehm2". We were blockmates first and when we were arranged alphabetically, she was seated at my back. Then, everything goes with the flow. She's my spiritual mentor, hihi! No joke, and she's also my living conscience and stuffs. Yes, we may be fond of boy hunting, but we're waiting for the right time to meet Mr. Perfect someday. We love eating, eating, and eating. Seriously, yes, I'm lucky to have this mind-opener. She's teaching me to be serious with studies, and very good because I think she's successful in doing so. Really? We rarely have this "emoments" and also full of Haha's.

Long entry eh? I just love my friends, like a real sibling :)

DAY 5: Similarities

Love is like writing.

Freehand writing. Love goes with the flow, blinded by emotions.

Editing. Fate will find its way for flaws and correct it.

Revision. Everything will start all over again, with changes but a better relationship.

Output. Will it have a happy ending or the other way?

It's the writer's choice on how his article/story/writing will end up. It's a matter of choice of words, play with it, and making sure that readers will understand it.

It's a person's choice on how his relationship will end up. It's a matter of choice of partner, knowing their rules, and making sure that both of them will understand it.

It's not only applicable with boy-girl relationship, but also family, and friendly relationships.

Day 4: The Usual Day

Just like any other college students, my life revolves in “bahay-school” routine plus social life, however limited (it’s better than no social life at all).

I have this theory that will not complete my week if I haven’t felt it – The theory of start the day with GV and end it with BV, and vice versa.

Day 3: I'm Blessed

God created me and He used my parents as an instrument in bringing into life the most beautiful and gorgeous girl in this world. HAHA

So much for this one, it's not about myself anymore, but "them".

Seriously, just like myself, I'm finding some hard time describing or introducing them. One thing I only know is that, my parents are the best. Best in a way that only my heart and soul can define and explain.

Thank you and love you both :)

Day 2: chuvachoochoo

I wonder why in just a span of two days, love is already the topic. I admit I was once a bitter girl. HOHO. I don't want to dig in too much, so here's the brief story.

I have this guy friend whom I fell in love with. I can consider that he's one of my closest guy friends. We shared stories and give each other's advice, then the fell thing happened. I know that he loved someone else, well in fact, I also tried to help him out with his girl. Spell stupid. I just did that because I believe that I am the one of those he trusts, so that's it.

I don't know how to end this entry because I'm hungry. PIZZA TIME :)

30 days: Day 1, Me Myself and I

I hate introducing myself because seriously, I don't know how. But then, I'll try. :)

I am who am I am. I'm 19 years old. Others say I am baby-faced, and doesn't look like a legal-aged lady (I don't know if it's a compliment) and being small, short, petite, or minute added  to the impression of me being a high school student.

I'm the youngest and only girl in the family. In my opinion, that's one of the factors why I possess "boyish" actions sometimes. I'm a real girl, okay? ;) When I entered college, I started to act and dress like a girl. I think it's not yet too late to be a late bloomer right?

I'm a creative and imaginative who loves transforming it to drawing or short stories (it's not worth reading so don't borrow it from me, okay?). I love cooking, but hate slicing HAHAHA and of course, I love eating, sleeping, eating, sleeping, and eating. HAHA.

I write letters to friends whenever I just want to. I'm into written than oral. I'm more of a listener than a talker. I love listening with other people's love stories and give advice - but can't follow it sometimes.

I am fond of looking back rather than looking forward. And lastly,

I'M VERY CURIOUS WITH THE WHATS-GOING-ON AROUND ME HAHAHA :p

30 Days

I decided to open my blogger and explored my blockmates' page and found this entry on Gel's wordpress, "30 days". I then realized that she first found this on Ardi's. I found it interesting and since I'm so bored for three straight days, why not try. Besides, it might give me the momentum to update regularly by blogger. :)

30 Days of Writing

1 – Introduce yourself

2 – Your first love

3 – Your parents

4 – Your day

5 – Love

6 – Your best friend

7 – A happy moment

8 – A sad moment

9 – Your beliefs

10 – What you wore today

11 – Your siblings

12 – What’s in your bag

13 – This week

14 – What makes you laugh

15 – Your first kiss

16 – Your dreams

17 – Your favorite birthday

18 – Your favorite memory

19 – Your favorite place

20 – Something you regret

21 – Something that upsets you

22 – Something that makes you feel better

23 – Something that makes you cry

24 – Something that you miss

25 – Your lover

26 – Most painful breakup

27 – Second chance

28 – Your fears

29 – Your aspirations

30 – One last moment

Such a Blessing

I know that I was a lazy and stubborn student this past semester. And as I've evaluated, it's the worst semester for me. But still, God gave me another chance, chance that He keeps on giving me.

I know that I often say this every time I get my grades, but this time, this is for real. I don't want to waste the efforts of group works that's helping me maintain my GWA while I don't mind individual performances. Also, it's just semester that I really valued partnership in school works. I don't want to be a burden and be a reason why my partner will get lower grades. I feel so guilty. :(

So, I'LL BE DOING MY BEST IN MY FINAL YEAR IN COLLEGE. FOR REAL.

Thank You Lord for the Blessing and I'm asking for Your guidance towards my future. :)

It's because I miss it

Okay. So I was able to watch 'Crazy 'Little Thing Called Love' just this week. Hoho. Credits to my Thesis Buddies :) As I was watching the film, I remembered my very first story ever written, the 'Best friends'. It turned out to be similar in the first part, but differ with its ending.

I mind posting my story here because really, it's oh so badly written, and untouched (unedited). I was only first year high school when I wrote it, and it's been years after I re-read it. I tried to edit it but chose not to. HAHA. I just would like to preserve my innocence in terms of writing, and.. and.. emotions while it was in the verge of completion. HAHAHA. (woo! umi-innocence at emotions XD).
grammar
Anyway, for those who have read it, it was always the question, "Why not a happy ending?" I just don't believe in happy endings, that's maybe the reason why my stories are ineffective and 'corny' if I end it with cheers and joys. Booo me! Hoho. I'll let you read it if you want, just tell me. Just bare with my grammar and way of writing. :)))

What others say is true, that you cannot detach your self from your writing. :)

I miss writing those kind. I felt that this passion stopped when I became too busy with school stuffs but I'm so disappointed with my self. If this is a passion of mine, then why school works became a hindrance? Okay, such a failure. Let's change and continue what I've started to improve :)

because of love

I was about to blog something else, but my friends started to pm me and talk about their love life. So, I decided to write about this one this time. :)

Many of my friends share their stories with me, and maybe, some of them wonder where the hell my stupid advices come from. Sometimes, when I'm in the mood, these thoughts would just come out from my mouth, that's why most of the time, I end up my sentence saying "ano ulit sinabi ko?". Seriously, my advices come from nowhere. Also, I tend to be frank with my friends (which I think they hate? :))) especially when I see and feel that they are already beyond the limits.

And because I'm in the mood, let's put pareng love as my subject (ALL BASED IN MY OPINION :D)
1. Why make the first move?
Years back, women are known to be Ma. Clara and men serenade them. But now, things are reversed. It is true that not having a boyfriend in this generation is a bit of weird. Also, Some girls sometimes envy those who are committed, and out of desperation, they do make the first move in terms of relationship. Let him fall for who you really are and not because of your effort to get his heart.

2. Why stay if he wants you to leave?
It's like, you  will look like a dog who needs a home, pleading him to adopt you. If he loves you, you won't need to ask for his love. So, why stay if you know you'll get nothing? You'll be just wasting your time loving the wrong man.

3. Why stay if you think you he's hurting you too much?

"Mahal ko siya ee". The most common and "BULOK" answer I often hear when men betray women. Though it's hurtful in her side, still, women manage to forgive them all because of love. Oh love, why are you keeping some women super duper martiiirr????

4. In-love?

I shall say, fling. This is one thing that I kept on wondering why there are women who are into this. Yes, they are having fun, but, this is just a complete waste of time. Because, you'll never know who and when the right guy is coming because in your mind, is just having fun.

5. It's not the looks my dear.

Look within. And you'll know what true love is :)

So what if you're single? At least, you're giving yourself a peace of mind. Think about this. 

Life is short, why waste your time with men who doesn't know your worth? Why waste time with men whom you know just playing with you? Why waste your time? Explore the world. It's true that it is good to have adventures with someone, BELIEVING he's the one, while holding your other hand. But, don't you think it is better to take a journey alone and end it, meeting the man whom you will be spending with forever?

Time is fast, but why in a hurry? There's no need because if the right man comes, then he will. 

There's nothing wrong in falling. Just know your limits. You are smart. Don't let yourself be blinded. Learn when to let go. Learn to move on. Learn to fall in love again :)

ANOTHER NON-SENSE EH? :))))

What?

I'm not that good in titles, I'd better leave it that way. :))

It's almost a month since I created this blog then what happened? I wasn't able to fulfill my thing to update this one regularly.

Anyway.

It's the first day of March and I consider myself as the laziest person. I meant lazy because my mind does not cooperate with my body. Though my body would love to work and finish all the school works it can, my brain will do the opposite. It will instruct my eyelids to close so my dear eyes won't see anything. And then, poor me will definitely fall asleep. BOO!

Another anyway.

I could still remember my blog a year ago which was about "me but not the old me". Somehow about that. It's privately posted so don't mind looking for it. In that note, my sensitive part (once again) came out, which marks my return to the reality.

Why back to reality?

Because, it's after the realization that regrets won't do nothing, except it will make you wiser the next time, hence help you become a stronger person. After that realization, I felt that my "not me" feeling for two years came back. And, tadaaa! Presenting the jolly :))) See? I'm really weird when I'm the real me :))))

However, I felt that there something missing. Not boys. HAHA (Why bitter?? :))) But the me when it comes to academics.Though I promised myself last summer that I will do my best this year, but look at me. It seems that nothing has changed since my first year in college. Like I said, this is not me. I'm hoping that this coming year, this is what will come back.

Sorry, you wasted time reading this. Promise. I won't post stuffs in the future when I'm not in the mood :P

Nth Time

Hello, FOR THE 3RD TIME, Blogger.

Okay, so this my third account in blogger. The first one was left untouched while I forgot the password for the second. And since I was inspired by the journal of Galo in Ang mga Kaibigan ni Mama Susan by Bob Ong, I decided to start all over AGAIN (for the nth time really) in blogworld.

Bye multiply, Hello blogspot! :)

Wish me luck. And hopefully, this one is for REAL.