Oyes. I've been like this for almost a week. Now, I'm hyper, then the next thing I know I'd be thinking about things that will make me upset. I seemed to be who I am when talking to friends in social networking sites , but here at home, straight face, quiet and I'm really not in the mood to talk. I'd rather stay quiet, watch movies, read a book, and I'm really moody lately :l
Seriously, I'm not excited with my birthday because I got the feeling that something will disappoint me that day. Though my parents insisted to bring friends here, I'd rather not to because I want to be alone (emotionally). Weird right? but I guess I can't figure out what's bugging me. Is it because I won't be a teenager anymore? Is it because of random problems I kept for myself? Is it because of worrying things too much?
THIS IS NOT ME.
I used to be expressive. I used to be appreciative. I used to be. I admit, I don't know who to trust anymore. I've been a weakling since "things" started to change; since I felt betrayed; since I felt emotionally rejected. I need some time soul searching and time to discern. :(
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